Like how blissfully amazing it feels to feel loved. To not only hear those sweet words but to feel them inside you, like butterflies tickling your heart. How it changes everything. To have someone look at you and you can see the love gleaming in their eyes. Nothing can compare to the feeling of been treasured by someone who you share your deepest love with. That is magical.
Nothing on this earth matters more than those you love. No matter how bad a day, week or year is, no matter how many tearful nights you have or dark days you have felt, if you surround yourself by people who genuinely love and adore your very soul, all that other useless stuff seems to dissolve into nothingness. Nothing in this world matters more than the relationships with those people who truly love you. If everything fell away and I was left jobless, broke, damaged and afraid, I would be ok as long as I had those few special people I love at my side. I have learnt that I draw strength and happiness from those around me. No promotion or increase or place or thing makes me feel as wealthy as I do when I see my lover truly happy at my side, his hand on mine his eyes lovingly, on mine, or to have my older brothers crawl on to the bed with me and beg me to come and play dominos with them, or to have my amazing nephews share a secret with me, whispering it into my ear, or to have a friend trust me enough to tell me her deepest, darkest fears, or to see my mother and father simply looking into each others eyes with flawless love after 30 years of joyful marriage. This is why I am alive. To experience these things, to be surrounded by these people makes my life worth living. This is what makes me euphoric. Different people live for different things, some strive to be the best at what they do, some need to make as much money as they can to the feel secure, others need to feel popular and cool to fit in, others need to go places and see things to find contentment, everyone is searching for something. I don’t really need a great job where I earn loads of money, I don’t need hundreds of friends or designer things to satisfy me, I don’t need to travel to exotic places learning and seeing amazing things, all I need is love and those people who love me. That is honestly all I need, the rest is all just a bonus. In all truth I think my greatest fear is to be unloved and completely alone. That is the only thing I could not survive. I am in such a great place at the moment because I know how much I am loved. I can feel it. I am so lucky to be surrounded by such incredible, caring, beautiful souls who love me for who I am. And who I love unapologetically with all that I am.
I am holding on to that little ray of sunshine. The greatest thing you’ll ever learn is to love and be loved in return.