The 10 Day You Challenge - Day Three

The 10 Day You Challenge - Day Three - Eight Fears (in no particular order)

1. I will be alone. I have been raised by parents who love each other and that love is shared and shown freely, with full hearted passion. My grandparents died a single day apart from one another because they could not live in a world that did not have the other in it. That is something I desperately want. I want someone to love me like that, forever, with endless passion. Love is the only thing that I could not live without. And I am so afraid I will never find that elusive soul and I will be alone. I fear loneliness.

2.I will not be able to have children. I would make an amazing mother. And I have always known I was made to be a mother. But I am scared there will be something wrong with me and I will not be able to have my own children. This thought terrifies me.

3.I am afraid I have some horrible disease and it will slowly kill me off. I don't know how many types of diseases are out there, but I fear each one of them.

4. I am utterly, insanely afraid of cockroaches. This is a completely irrational fear, but non the less, they terrify me!!! they are so gross and they always seem to fly towards my hair. They have intent in their little beady eyes!

5.I am afraid of things of a dark nature. Like dark spirits, tormented ghosts, poltergeists, demons, that sort of thing. I am not sure if I believe in them but I don't not believe in them. I sometimes feel a presents and it could be good or bad, but if its bad that terrifies me! The unknown of it all, also scares me.

6. I am afraid of people who could hurt me and my family. Bad people, who have black hearts and lost dreams.

7. I am afraid to loose myself. To loose the parts of me that make me unique. (My creativity and passion for illustration been one of those things.) I am also afraid that if I loose those parts of me, I am not sure how I would get it back. I fear that I will never be as great as I was when I was my 16-18 year old self. I fear that I will never achieve what I need to achieve to make me happy.

8. Loosing my parents. My parents are my world. I look up to them with such admiration and love. They are my bases for everything I do on this earth. They are simply amazing, I can not put into words how special they are to me and without them my world would crumble and my heart would shatter. Without them this world will have suffered one of the greatest losses. They are two of the most beautiful, precious, wise souls I know.

And those are the fears that torment my soul. Fear is a natural emotion and I feel all emotion is healthy, it is how you live with the fear that really matters. G